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Freedom from Negativity

This is my last post for the year, and it is quite a read. I pray you God’s grace in reading it till the very end, Amen.

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This month signifies the birth of Christ, the basic reason He came is to set us free from ALL (as in this case my depression, and likewise you, your ——–, amongst others). The birth of Christ is PERSONAL, His essence is personal for everyone and so, amidst all the Partying, Celebrations, Religion and etc. MAKE SURE HIS BIRTH HAS BEEN ENCOUNTERED BY A SITUATION IN YOUR LIFE…

We have done enough celebrations in light of the public holiday given on Christmas day- the birth of Christ has become so lose in some hearts, that it is been equated with democracy day or world health day; just another public holiday-

The birth of Christ is the solution to your life situations, He came to exchange His life for our own, understanding this truth and testifying to the goodness of His coming is the greatest celebration you can give-

Just as people sew new cloths for Christmas, I have likewise sewed a new WORD for my Christmas. This piece is dedicated to the broken hearted, those who are (or have ever) been depressed, to those hurting, those that thought all hope was lost, to the helpless, and most importantly, to whoever gets to read this-

Dear God,
This message came in writing, in such a time as this, I pray it speaks to the hearts you “came, died and resurrected for, I pray your healing power and essence be accomplished in us in Jesus name, Amen.

-Freedom from Silence-

Dear silence,
Ssshhh!!!
Please keep quiet;
Without a word,
I hear you too loud… too clear…

You are a comforter when I’m depressed,
A shelter whenever I’m lost,
A home for my self-pity,
My breath in low self esteem-

Yet I’m still here
Dying on the inside
For some reasons to be made known,
annulling the thought of suicide; again.

Ssshhh!!!
I tell self,
Deceiving myself with this lie,
“No one will understand you,
but if you must, tell it to yourself
no one else will understand you.”

And so, for too long
I wallowed in loneliness,
Though I was surrounded by people
I was very much always alone.

I was eclectic with my decisions,
I felt I couldn’t have been wrong;
I was in so much pain, it made
Childbirth’s pain, look as painless as
bathing a child and so I thought,
“This has to be my best option
Being silent meant I was on the right track.”

I couldn’t tell anyone,
Not my lover
Not even the Lover of my soul,
I became isolated,
An embodiment of sadness…

I learnt how to fake a smile,
I learnt how to be defensive,
I learnt how to read people;
thus picking meaning from almost anything-

It wasn’t always like this though,
I once tried to talk,
But I was induced with more problems,
Rather than a simple hand of solution

I wanted a friend,
But I got someone that grew distant.
I wanted a brother,
But I got someone that didn’t bother.
I wanted a listener,
But I got someone that was just hearing.
I wanted you
But all I got was someone that didn’t care enough.

With this much pain,
I found me a sedative,
I found succor in SILENCE
Keeping the pain to myself;
seemed to be the best option,
at least no one will induced more hurt…

Ssshhh!!!
…Silence…
I hear you too loud… too clear…
For too long-

But, things are different now,
They are getting better,
I see a light in my tunnel,
Someone reminded me of JESUS,
The one who allows me cast my care upon him,
The one who isn’t judgmental
as he is careful in caring for me,
The one who gives rest to the heavy laden,
The one who gives peace to the soul,
The one with understanding,
The one who LISTENS,
The only one who heals no matter how deep…

My trust-
Its been abused once to many
Honestly, it has made me pessimistic,
Nonetheless… I felt I should give him a try,
And so I opened up to him
I told him about the weight I had been lifting
My tears fell right on his shoulder…
It became crystal clear,
He is the light in my tunnel.
Do not misread the next couple of lines;
I’m still in the walking process making progress-

I feel lifted
I am calmer
I feel joy
I know I have someone that will listen;
a friend always closer than a brother
I’m lighter
I know I have someone that understands

“You need to speak up
Silence spreads within you like cancer,
And kills faster than a bullet to the heart-
It’s when people HEAR you,
that you become more depressed.
Find someone that will LISTEN:
Family, counselor, mentor,
Boyfriend, Girlfriend, neighbor,
Whoever… but don’t be desperate as to anyone,
Make sure it’s someone that will listen,
Someone with the active heart of God-

Don’t keep silent
You need to speak up”

Silence; be quiet!!!
I want to speak-
Christ in me, is as well as in others
I’ve found someone I can talk to,
Someone in whom I find God’s PEACE
(D title ascribed to d heart that listens)
I pray you find yours too…

This is a story of someone recovering from depression through the walking grace of God. I am not here to debate whether or not God’s influence is involved. His birth is the reason for salvation; His coming is a reminder that we are more than able to overcome the negativities of this world. I pray just as I have tapped into this anointing, you too will-

Scriptural references (1 peter 5:7, Matthew 11:28-30, John 14:27, Proverbs 3:5-6, Psalm 147:3 )

Merry Christmas,

With love,
OLABODE OLUWATOSIN.

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God Speaking

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To whom do I give My inheritance?
When I can’t call you son…
Though you claimed to know Me,
All I can say is, “I never knew you”  

Depart from me you worker of iniquity,
Though the world affirms you religious,
Doing all… Just so self be glorified,
When My glory is for Me and alone.  

Yeah-
You cast out demons,
Your ministry is that of signs and wonders,
You go to church,
Your speech has allowed the Holy Spirit win souls,
You know scripture better than the pope,
You are a teacher of the law…  

Yeah-
While your every good deed
might be a starting point to salvation
for your contacts, it’s but a reward for you.
Only in Jesus Himself, is your salvation,
And not what you “seemingly” do for Him.  

… By saying, “I never knew you”
It implies you called me Lord,
But never made me yours.
You came to My works,
But never came to ME.
You met my Kingdom,
But settled in everything else I had to offer-

This are my words…
But only on the seat of judgment
They cannot be changed then,

But you still have TODAY!!!
Make your motive right…
Introduce Me to your heart…
Allow Me make it pure…
And you will be an evidence of grace!!!  

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                                            “He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches”- Revelations 3:13.

With love,
Olabode Oluwatosin.
God bless-

Prostitution

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                                                                                                 I became one- A Prostitute  

…Evil desires…
…Passions of the flesh…
My lower nature,
Amonsgt they that had me…  

My soul was panting,
I just couldn’t resist her”
Give it a try I thought!
It’s pleasure and ALMOST DONE…  

Lust-
For a price of love,
I gave my beauty away;
Like a vegetable losses nutrients in a rinse…  

Temptation isn’t overwhelming,
When it’s with the unloved;
Like Joseph with portiper’s wife.
“But when it comes to the one with whom you see a future,
I mean; the one your heart has already committed too,
Its most assuredly… not easy…”  

…With this excuse, I fell-
I let lose my guard,
I became ONE, while becoming one flesh…
My licentiousness had me.
It was fun, I must confess,
Then it became AGAIN and AGAIN…  

What’s painful is, I WAS a christian,
Flirting with every chance I got,
While remaining a brother/sister outwardly,
All the while thinking… with GRACE,
It’s just a normal thing,
More so, “we’ve got something going on”,
And God’s forgiveness shall abound.  

Man/woman speaking…  

“I’m only human-
I’ve tried to stay “single”; sorry “faithful”
But:

…(Her breast, fully grown;well-shaped and up to date,
His chest, giving me that soothing, comforting and safe feeling,
Her lower lips… My gosh!!!
His scent releasing dopamine smell; Oh my!)…”

…Had me;
they kept calling “just one more…”
…Just one more…
I wasn’t told it was,
“One more step closer to condemnation”.  

Though I lost calibration with the Lord,
He didn’t leave without a fight.
For the joy set before me,
I was reminded, Honour and Righteousness… 

This disease is no respecter of person,
Your immunoglobulin don’t count;
Call it whatever you will:
Fornication,  adultery, obscenity,
Pornography, concupiscence, rape,
Orgy, homosexuality or incest…
ALL STILL THE SAME;
She will kill you; not now, but in eternity-  

God speaking…  

“When you get in touch with me,
I do not spit your past all over you,
My time is better spent discussing the “PRESENT” “FUTURE”,
This nature is the sin you desired and picked,
Like any other;
I will forgive…
Just will, dear child, to come back home,
You tried on your own, remember?
But it was to no avail…
Just Come Back Home;
Like any other;
I’ll forgive and grant you peace”.

I will wait for you Dear Special One-
Don’t mistake it,
THIS IS ONLY POSSIBLE
THROUGH GOD’s WALKING GRACE.
A conscious effort to let him lead over flesh…  

Now with God,
I’ve become one- A PROSTITUTE
A Pure Righteous Obedient Special Temple,
In Truth’s Unique Total Existence…
If I will; to make meaning from spelling…

My past is over .
Thank you Jesus.
I’m walking in God’s grace,
By the leading of His Holy Spirit;
AND YOU TOO CERTAINLY CAN!!!        

     This is dedicated to anyone out there, who is fighting with sexual temptations of all sorts, to that person that has lost hope, to you, who, up until now, wasn’t conceived sexual immorality is wrong, to them that see prostitution as a rescue home, to that person that wouldn’t watch porn, but keeps tab with the current immoralities in our today’s bestsellers. IT IS DEDICATED TO YOU WHO HAS FALLEN AND IS READY (or already has) TO RISE AGAIN… NB… Your prostitution might not be standing by the road waiting for the next hotel/motel that will witness your latest skills; this context defines prostitution with respect to YOUR sexual impurity.
                    
                                                                                                                                                                                                               With  a warm love,  
                                                                                                                                                                                                             Olabode Oluwatosin
                                                                                                                                                                                                               God Bless You…

God and Man-the Thirst

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This is dedicated to my Special; it’s how the peace came back… I love you…

(Man…

Lord, my peace…

Word on the cross

 (God…

I am thirsty…

I am thirsty for righteousness

I am thirsty for the true worshippers; those of Spirit origin

I am thirsty for life; the actual one I gave you

I am thirsty

I am thirty for those that will walk with me

I am thirsty for those whose work for me is actually led by me

I am thirsty for you

Ironically, it’s my water in you that will quench this thirst

But you have to want it

I am thirsty…

It’s the reason I died; remember,

To be complete, actually it is ,so you don’t die

You see, am thirsty for that sinner

For this reason I came

(Man…

I am thirsty for your peace Lord Jesus

‘Am the whore whose sin is so big even sinners are hating-

Oh! I’m that killer Lord, everyone is saying “but how did he end up like this?”

‘Am the one marked sinner; however big or small

Lord, I’m thirsty for your presence; the world has failed me

Like Solomon in scriptures, everything is now vanity

Lord I’m thirsty because I used to think

Lord I’m thirsty because I now know

Lord I’m thirsty…

‘Am that lukewarm Christian;  I’ve been in the church for ages

Yet spot-full I have become

Lord I’m thirsty cause I want to be your bride when you return

I always thought I was a Christian

Never knew my actions were just me acting

Oh Lord! How sweet my mouth and ears were in serving you

While my lifestyle, motive and nature was affirming…

(God…

“I never knew you; you worker of iniquity”

(Man cont…

Lord I’m really this time thirsty, to be like you

Your original intent from the very beginning

Correcting and not condemning people

Praying and not preying people

(Thirst…

John 4:14

  “But whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life.”

John 14:6

“Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”

Rev 3:20

 “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.”

(Man…

I am thirsty for your humility

Your forgiveness

Your salvation

For your love

Your relationship-

ME TOO, I’m thirsty for YOU, Lord Jesus!

These are not words written in the speech realm, but those written as a form of action, a Christian is not necessarily that person you are looking at, THE CHRISTIAN IS THE PERSON THAT IS IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS (it could  be that person though, but the point is, it could also be you). I invite you into an intimate ultimate eternal love affair founded by a religion of a relationship with the living water that satisfies all….

John 7:37-38

“On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.”

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All scriptures are from the New King James Version of the Bible

God loves you; he has never and will never stop…

By: Olabode Oluwatosin.